Wednesday, 12 June 2013

So... What now?


I got an email from Pete the other day.

“Just wondered if you’d had any thoughts on a blog post. Thought it might be time to post one. What d’ya reckon?”

And yes, yes it is. There’s just one tiny hitch, and it’s dripping with irony.

I’ve told this story before, I know, but the last time I saw Lisa (the very last time in fact), we talked Alright Tit and how it she’d built herself up to performance anxiety about it all (she tells this story much better by the way). And there I was, telling her that what was really important wasn’t big long epic posts, but keeping in touch, talking to you lot, making it a cathartic thing for her, because if it was a stress, what was the point? She hardly needed another burden.

Skip forward six months, and here I am, staring nervously at a blank screen. She would so kick my ass right now.

It’s my own fault really. Reading back on that last post, I built up the future of this blog a fair bit, but the fact is it’s three months since that bleak Monday morning phone call from Pete, and as far as what’s going to happen on here, still no idea. Not yet anyway.

If quantum physics and watching Star Trek on Netflix have taught me anything though, it’s that somewhere out there there’s a parallel universe where Lisa’s cranked out some awesome posts in the last few weeks. We’ll never get to read them of course, which is a damn shame because I really really want to read what Alternate-Universe-Lisa managed to write about Angelina Jolie. I want to read what she thinks about how the press bickered about it all, I want to read about her moaning about all the “she’s so brave” cobblers. And let’s face it, she’d probably get a kick out of the ‘me and Angelina’ bit when it came to sharing The Bullshit™. She’d probably have a few choice things to say about Michael Douglas as well, never mind having a tweet-binge over this year’s Eurovision.

Sadly, as much as hanging with A-U-Lisa and gossiping about it all over Tunnocks and tea would take the weight of the past few months away for a moment, the cold truth is it’s not going to happen. She’d look silly with the evil-Spock-goatee anyway.

As time rolls on though, the shock of losing Lisa has evolved into just really really missing her, give or take the odd gut punch of reality here and there. But at the same time, these past few weeks have been about seeing just how loved she is, reading some of the awesome messages you lot have sent to lisalynchremembered@gmail.com, as well as on here, and remembering happier times of talking toot with her over work e-mail for (literally) years on end.

And of course, looking to the future. There’s more to come. The TV adaptation of “The C-Word” is still bubbling away in development, although my suggestions of turning me into a central character played by Dirk Benedict seem to be getting nowhere. Lisa’s memorial fund with Trinity Hospice continues to grow, and her book keeps shifting off the shelves.

So I’ll say again what I said last time – alrighttit.com will continue. In fact, while we ponder exactly what the future might hold, for the next few weeks I’m going to post some of the messages, blog posts, emails and more that you’ve all sent (and if you’re in a guest post kind of mood, even better).

Whatever this site will look like six months from now, it’s going to come not from me but from all of us, and I for one am looking forward to it.

7 comments:

Paul McLean said...

When I saw this come up on Twitter and my RSS feed, I don't mind admitting that I cried!

I'm sure you'll do a grand job, she knew what she wanted and that was you to do the business! So you will... Simple! Keep the chin up and remember that A-U-Lisa, who I picture with a bowl haircut too (she's kick our asses for the beard and the bowl cut comments!), remember that she'd appreciate the thought you're putting in too!

Christine Swainson said...

Good to know you still here. It's been hard for you all. Missed Lisa's posts as I am sure lots have. Good luck for the future and a big hello to all that used to read Lisa's blog and were so sorry she isn't here anymore. Won't say battle because no matter what you do something's can't be stopped. Xx

Facing Cancer Together said...

Good luck, whatever direction this takes I know there's an online community waiting to cheer it forward. ~Catherine

Unknown said...

I too had misty eyes when I saw this cross my desktop. I met Lisa through the magic of the internet and we corresponded back and forth a few times (I sent her my finished CD, she sent me a signed copy of her book). It is good to know that the site will carry on. Makes me know that she will as well.

Sha Egan said...

Was only thinking about Lisa yesterday morning and thinking how I missed her posts and tweets and then her blog pops in to my email. You will do whatever's right xx

marsha said...

Awesome post. Thanks so much for doing this. And for making me laugh out loud (Spock beard) when I would have least expected to.
Looking forward to reading the messages and posts.
I really want to write a guest post, have been working up to it and will send it when I do.
Lots of love to you, Pete, all of Lisa's family, and all the rest of us online Alright Tit Family
xxxxx

sjsto said...

Ha! I made a comment wondering what Lisa would've made of Angelina Jolie's prophylactic surgeries when Mrs. Pitt first cropped up as the Oestrogen Villainess in this blog. I'm glad to see you agreed that she would have had something choice to say on the subject.